Things have not been the same for a few months now. Especially these couple of months have been real changing phases. I haven't felt the loneliness so much. I've missed you each and every second since we became very good friends, but now i really feel that, I am away more than a friend. You dont share with me all the things that you used to share when we were just friends. Why?
Its been four years since we know each other. It was so nice to have you around. Smiling, and making fun of me.Teasing me all the time.I guess you are getting fed up with me.I am kind of lazy bones, breaks promises, and your heart. I have made you cry more than i've made you smile. I've weighed the burden of my sorrows and cravings on you. I guess you feel i used you, and thats why you are using me to finish your project. I dont really intend to hear from you once the project is over.
Why do we meet online on sundays???? I dont know even if that is going to happen after the project work is complete.I dont expect you to meet me online this sunday or any of the coming weeks. Now you say, we can marry only if i come to meet you, and that i'll. But i very much doubt that you are ready for me.I guess you've learned to move on, instead of waiting on me, because i am never going to turn up at all.
So you know for pretty sure i am not going to come, and that's why you said like that. I can feel it in the way you talk to me. You dont really talk to me at all. just sighs and whispers that you make. I dont want your hugs or anything. All i wanted to be was loved, cared and appreciated.
I have lost interest in living. I am waiting to die. Because, of what I am. Uncared, Unloved, Unappreciated. No one ever needs me. Including you my love. I dont know how long this is going to run. But i'll finish your project you dont worry. But after that, i dont know how long you are going to hear from me. Because, I am going to die. I am going to die very soon. I can feel it already. My heart is paining a lot and I cant possibly bear this pain anymore. Thanks for making me happy for a few years. Thanks for everything sweetheart.
God Bless.
